On Cloud Nine.
Hello,
I’m grateful that I was provided with provisions that never end. Sight, hearing, smell, taste, a family that has always been the backbone, sweet boyfriend who always support me, good friends and born into Islam. Last semester was tough for me because the final year project started and also had to focus on a business’s project too.
In April, there was a person approached and told me to create an agent system. We decided to meet up at his store in Pahang for further discussion as his system need a better understanding as it is a custom system. Understanding the complexity of the system is really important as it will determine the project cost and project timeline, whether the project is a good fit for my team skills. We need to balance bold risk with wise safety. We don’t want to be foolishly daring, nor overly cautious, in our decisions. Accept a project and see whether we can deliver or develop it, is an important criteria.
After a few hours of discussion with him, he accepted and signed the document. As a person that meets client and expects the project need to be accepted, do you know how I feel at that time? – “Happiness that will make me cry” hahaha. It’s not because I’m gonna make my account bank fat (obviously it is!) but thinking that I’m capable enough to handle the negotiable project between clients is the thing I feel…….. great about.
Sometimes, I don’t believe what I’m capable of and sometimes I think that I’m capable enough to do something out of my comfort zone. The most important part of any task is starting. The same goes for my study. I’m very happy when my last semester result is Dean List.
Get Dean Lists in my life is not something new because I managed to get ANC in my diploma. But, I never feel this is something I should be proud of and make me stop study smart because I think I’m already smart! This is the tricky mind because the result sometimes can make you think the other way. For example, “I’m skinny. I think that I’m healthy because I’m skinny. So, why should I exercise?”
“I’m always got, Dean List. I am smart. So, why I should study? In the end, I’m gonna get a Dean List based on the previous semester.” When I said this is the tricky mind, what I mean is you’re gonna stop doing particular things because your mind said that you’re already achieved it. So, why should you work your ass off? Your mind can manipulate you and make you think that you don’t have to work on something because you’re too believe with yourself.
Do you think that every successful thing that you get is because you just think you can or because you work hard for it? You’re the only person who knows that. Whatever it is, don’t stop even you’re done. Don’t stop make yourself better than yesterday.
When someone wants to close the door for me, I’ll jump out from the windows because that’s the only way I can keep going to the next phase.
